today was my day off. i woke up around nine after having a dream that the world was ending. well, everyone was going to die, all at once. for some reason i was hanging out with my ex-girlfriend from college, and looking for the boy I kissed in second grade. i woke up feeling weird.
i didn’t leave the house all day today. my plan was to go do errands in another town, but felt lazy about it. ended up watching a marathon of The Secret Life of the American Teenager. i wasn’t very impressed. now i’m watching House. i was slightly productive though, sorting all my important papers into file folders. and i ate leftover vegetable stuff rather than macaroni and cheese which is what i was craving.
two days until i finally see Booty Call again. i’m kind of annoyed with her though. haven’t heard from her hardly at all in the last couple days, and feel rather dissed. i don’t like feeling like i’m so far down the list of priorities. but the sex is so good that i know when she comes back i’ll still fuck her. i just need to get these stupid emotions out of the way. and i’m not in love with her. i keep checking in with myself about that. so why do i want her to be in love with me?
it snowed again. i’m so tired of the snow.
work again tomorrow. fun times.